My Mom

Ok i need to vent... ive been with my mom through thick and thin. When my real biological sperm donor beat the heck out of my mom i was there taking the brunt of my moms hits..we forgave each other. When my mom ran away from the man i call my dad when i knew they were soulmates, lifemates and true lovers... he got her and she thanked me (i told her how it was). I was there when she had a motorcycle accident i raised my little brother Jr.. i got through it cuz i had to raise my little sister when my real biological sperm donor was beating her. But this new one is a doosy. I dont know how to handle it. My mom has been really dick for the past 3 months. 2 months ago we found out that she has chiari maliformation. Where she has a 1.8 centimeter crack in her skull and right between her skull and skin by her spinal chord she has a piece of her brain out so every moment i have to worry if she is going to fall or not cuz if she falls she could die. Now she has a problem with her bladder. Im so afraid of losing my mom.Shes my everything(other that Jr and Ciara) she my MOM. Im a Christian and i pray so hard and long for God to just Cure her. I keep asking him Y her. Y Now? *tear* i just dont know what to do. I feel as if i have no one yet i do. I have to change her bath her feed her and water her. I just wish i could have my mom back. I wish and pray i could have her back healed and happy. I know this is a lot but i just needed to vent and cry.Please note, although no boardcode and smiley buttons are shown, they are still useable