well.......

Well, my life is going again. Craig is holding me up and he probably doesnt relieze it. School is fustrating, I push myself for 3 days so i have the rest of the week off. I just got done painting both of the bathrooms. One is chewy caramel with a leefy green ivy and the other is chewy caramel with a really deep blue and they are both really pretty. Nikki was supposed to help me but she didnt do much. but o well, im used to it. David is out and that was fun when he was over. I heard his voice and my hands started shaking and i called Craig. Nobody gets why but its hard. Its hard seeing and hearing the person you had planned on being with only to find out they werent the one so you call the one and its really annoying when nobody understands. I love Craig with all my heart and for once i mean that. I really mean it when i say i love you to him and i can honestly say i have only loved 2 people in my entire life. Craig is one of them. I dont know what i would do without him. I love him so much and he will probably read this so no more mushy gushy stuff. :) but as before im trying to move on with my life and start a new one with Craig and its hard when my past keeps slapping me in the face. Like first Adam starts talking to me again, I mean this kid wouldnt even acknoladge my exsitance for a year and then he randomly adds me as a friend on facebook and starts talking to me. it was wierd. Then David gets out and he comes here, to nikkis. where im staying and acts like nothing has ever happened. I hate it. GRRRR!!!
But o well, i have Craig and thats all that really matters. I already met his parents and they really werent that bad they were funny and you could tell where Craig became Craig. lol. They are just like him except its both of them in him . It was funny. I got to see his house and it was perrty. Log. He was kinda horney the whole weekend i was there. Yeah i was supposed to sleep in a different room. HAHA yeah like that was gunna happen. I was supposed to stay at Robyns but that didnt happen either. lol. wow. but the weekend was fun. He has a dairy farm. Ironic huh? I always said id end up with a farmer. a Dairy farmer at that. DEJA VU!
Randomly i love animals and i had to watch a Vet put blackey down and that was sad. It wasnt as hard as i thought it would be, but only because i thought she would move and whine more than she did. I kept thinking like a Vet, sadly.

Thats all for now...for this post its on to Craig